Panic Mode

Yep. That's what I am officially in- panic mode. I just scheduled my clinical hours for school and There are several weeks where I'll be doing a 48-hour shift at the fire station followed by a work day, and overnight shift at the ER, another work day, and then a night lecture. I think I'm just not going to sleep. Ever. For the next two months it'll only be about 60 hours a week, but once April hits it'll be at least 80 hours a week. Which all calculated out doesn't sound too bad I guess but it's the fact that those hours are broken up with only 3-4 hours in between every place I have to be (which includes the hour commute.) So that means I get 3 hours MAX of sleep at a time!! Maybe I'll get lucky at the fire station and we'll have quiet nights and I'll get some shut-eye then. My ER overnights, however, will be 12 hours straight on my feet. This is all assuming I'm allowed to keep my job. I have to take off 7 days in the next couple months. If they're okay with that then hopefully I won't fall asleep on the job when I come straight from an overnight ER shift.

It's scary but I know this program is where Heavenly Father wants me. I don't know what other plans He has for me, but I know at least I'm doing this paramedic program the way He wants. For our livelihood's sake, I'm trying to do the extra job my way and that's what's pushing my schedule from busy to insane. We need it though. Keith works so hard for us and I love all he does. I can't wait until I can be done with school and pull my full weight.